(image via John Champlain’s weblog)
Everyone who knows me knows i suffer from insomnia but refuse to take medication for it. It’s not only out of fear for potential dependency on it; i don’t like to take medication or supplements of any kind, not even vitamins. I just try to eat healthily and opt for natural remedies whenever possible. But desperate times call for desperate measures, so for bouts of severe insomnia, i take melatonin, or when i happen to be sick, too, ridiculous amounts of acetaminophen, neither of which helps at all. They actually make it worse by making me even sleepier but not helping me fall asleep. My usual causes of insomnia are:
1. overusing my mind
I’m insomniac right now, and it’s due to causes 1 and 2. This always happens when i start school, and it’s worse this semester because i’m taking two philosophy courses on top of adjusting to a new dorm and roommate. I can’t fucking stop thinking about all the things i’m reading about and discussing in lecture and recitation. And i can’t ignore all the little noises my roommate makes. I just hope i won’t be repeating my freshman year dorming experience, but that’s another story, which is too stressful to think about right now anyway.
No matter how much i tire myself during the day, and no matter how much melatonin i take, i can’t fall asleep. This is not good—i have a lot of work to do! I have to get things done, and i can’t do that when i’m running on no sleep. Many mistakes are going to be made this week, which is bad because i’m starting my internship on Wednesday. Can’t start off on the wrong foot! And please don’t suggest caffeine. It only makes things worse for me. Coffee has only ever done bad things to me, one of which was a mini heart attack. Alcohol? Tried that too.
So please, readers, offer me advice on how to zonk out. I don’t think i can take this any longer.
p.s. now i have a heartburn from stress and allergies from sleep deprivation. and i thought blogging was supposed to be therapeutic!