Sometimes i wish the world were a little town of fifty people

.   .   . I like familiarity.  As much as i try to fool myself into thinking that i like the new, the unexplored, the unknown, i’m just a scaredy-cat with my own share of insecurities.

When i start to get familiar with something, and something else threatens to take it from me, i panic.  I don’t wanna lose the chance of disclosing it.  I don’t wanna have to surrender it to the world out there.  I don’t wanna have to start from scratch, only to lose again.

I know we all deal with it.  Life is just a cycle of wanting things, getting them, not wanting them anymore…wanting something else, getting it, and not wanting that anymore either.

And at the same time, these things you want are ever elusive and out of your control.  I don’t act on many of my desires, because i’m afraid of losing the game.

Desire threatens my grip on things, and i don’t ever wanna lose my grip on things.

When i find something i want to keep, i wish the world were a little town of fifty people—a safe, enclosed universe where i could keep track of the things that matter to me, never let them out of my sight.  And when i find myself wanting something else, i wish the world were bigger than it is.  I hope it’s bigger than we think it is, and that a part of it will always stay beyond our grasp.

But just for now, i wish it were a little bit smaller.

artist credit:  Eben Goff


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