Today, i got the closure i needed. I was hurt a year and half ago and brutally reminded of that hurt two weeks ago, which made forgiving very difficult. But i’ve come to realize that it’s not forgiveness that matters—it’s the memories. Sure, he’s made mistakes, but somehow, my memories of what he and i shared remain untainted. I recognize the good in him, and i remember the love we shared, and that’s all i need. It’s unfortunate that it had to end this way, but that doesn’t diminish the power of what we had, and it doesn’t weaken the love we still have for each other, and forever will.
Today, we vowed to never forget each other. And that’s enough.
I just moved from 2nd and Bowery to 9th and 3rd Ave. I loved the location of the former—it was a quiet, secretively hip neighborhood, and i was two blocks away from Whole Foods, three blocks away from my internship, and a 10-min walk from campus—but it was difficult sharing a studio the size of five full size beds with a roommate. I haven’t met my new suitemate yet, but i’m loving it here so far, because the room (a single!) is much larger than i expected (everyone else thinks it’s small, but it’s big enough for me), and it’s south-facing, so i get plenty of sunlight. My plants will be happy for once. The only downside about the interior is the depressing and dirty kitchenette and bathroom. The industrial, fluorescent lighting does not help, and i don’t have the money or time to decorate right now. I’m also very close to 3rd Ave, so i’m inundated with traffic noise all the time. But i have a sundial right outside my window, and how cool is that (it’s the one in the triangle formed by 9th, Stuyvesant St., and 3rd Ave).
Weighing the pros and cons, i think i got a pretty good deal. And i’m really excited to transform my room into a welcoming sanctuary. Hopefully i’ll be happier here and be able to get more sleep so i can blog more!
*about the image: Apparently, Connecticut College residents have camels greeting them outside their window.
Back in September, i talked about my annual soundtracks and shared my very first one, the 2007 anthology. Another year has gone, so it’s time for me to share my 2008 soundtrack:
2008: My year in music
Pre. Regina Spektor – “Samson”
Jan. Tori Amos – “I Don’t Like Mondays”
Feb. Tom Waits – “Anywhere I Lay My Head”
Mar. Cat Power – “Keep on Runnin'”
Apr. Joe Purdy – “New York”
May. Grace Potter and the Nocturnals – “All But One”
Jun. Sarah McLachlan – “Blackbird”
Jul. Sigur Rós – “Takk…”
Aug. Brandi Carlile – “Happy” (live acoustic from The Cutting Room)
Sep. Joni Mitchell – “The Circle Game”
Oct. Regina Spektor – “Field Below”
Nov. Björk – “Pagan Poetry”
Dec. Radiohead – “There There”
Fin. Alexi Murdoch – “Wait”
Happy new year, everyone.
These are my initial thoughts on the differences between education, learning, and training. I’m looking to see how these thoughts evolve as i continue with my participation in all three.
My Media Criticism professor said that the purpose of his course was to teach us the vocabulary necessary to discuss visual culture. I think he was on to something.
How many times have you read something for class and gone, “I knew that! That’s what i always knew or vaguely knew but never had the words to express.” That certainly sums up how i usually feel when reading academic texts. And so, we could argue that education is the acquisition of vocabulary, a means of expressing what you know.
Learning, on the other hand, is about perceiving things and thinking about the information gathered. Learning is the development and exercise of thought.
Training, which is geared towards a craft or profession, is the acquisition of skills.
Now the question is, how well do learning establishments, and even individuals, integrate the three?
This is a personal tradition i started in 2007. I decided to make a soundtrack for every year of my life with a song for each month. Here is my 2007 soundtrack:
2007: My year in music
Pre. Zero 7 – “In the Waiting Line”
Jan. Radiohead – “Up On the Ladder”
Feb. Republika – “Poranna Wiadomość”
Mar. Mackenzie Phillips – “Another World”
Apr. Tori Amos & Ani DiFranco – “Silent All These Years”
May. Duncan Sheik – “Half-Life”
Jun. Imogen Heap – “Hide and Seek”
Jul. Joe Purdy – “Isn’t Love”
Aug. Cat Power – “Evolution”
Sep. KT Tunstall – “Universe & U”
week 1. The Doors – “The End”
week 2. Neil Young – “After the Gold Rush”
week 3. Aqualung – “Garden of Love”
week 4. The Poems – “Ballad of a Bitter End”
week 5. Ingrid Michaelson – “Keep Breathing”
Nov. Brandi Carlile – “That Year” (live in Birmingham)
Dec. Nick Drake – “Time Has Told Me”
Fin. Simon & Garfunkel – “The Only Living Boy in New York”
I know, there’s a prelude and finale, and October has five(!) songs. I’ve got a lot of explaining to do.
[edited 11/01/08, scroll down for the edit]
I’m currently a junior in NYU Steinhardt’s Media, Culture, and Communication department. I hate it. I used to be in NYU GSP (General Studies Program, now called Liberal Studies), had thought about transferring to CAS for Cinema Studies (GSP used to be a two-year program that required an internal transfer to a school of your choice in NYU), but upon taking two core courses in Steinhardt’s MCC (Media, Culture, and Communication) department, i decided to do an off-track transfer (i was on-track to CAS) to the latter department instead. And now that i am officially majoring in MCC, i’m beginning to realize that the academics aren’t as strong and inspiring as i initially thought they were. Also, i’m paying a lot of money for this education, so i’d rather major in something that would really allow me to experience and ponder humanity at its fullest, and a good major for that kind of education would be Philosophy (which is in CAS). I do have a bit of a background in Philosophy as i was required to take two core courses in it while in GSP, and most of my MCC courses included (and currently include) philosophical texts as well.
The thing is, if i were to double-major in MCC and Philosophy, i might have to stay an extra semester or two, which costs even more money. But if i major only in Philosophy, my degree may not be as marketable (as much as i don’t want to, i need to think about how i’m going to make a living). So, my question to you all is, would a minor in Communications suffice to make up for the practical education part of my degree, or is it true that employers don’t even consider applicants’ minors? Also, which U.S. universities are well-known for their Philosophy departments? Because if i am to do this, i might as well do it right and consider transferring to other schools as well, especially if i’ll have to spend extra semesters either way. As for my career aspirations? Anything, really, as long as i can help people and be creative at the same time. Anything in the arts would be especially appealing. I’d also like to be able to afford a roof over my head, sufficient food to stay healthy, and clothes to keep me civilly dressed.
You’ve seen and heard students get excited/anxious/nervous/irritable at the start of the school year.
“Oh my god, i’m so excited, i can’t wait to go back, i’ve been bored since July”;
“I can’t wait to party with my all friends!”;
“I’m not ready for summer to end”;
“I’m nervous for all these hard classes i signed up for”;
“I won’t procrastinate this year.” (Yeah, right.)
I know, it annoys me too. All that fuss over a new school year. But, it’s really not that simple. Septembers aren’t special just because they mark the beginning of a new school year. It’s not just a matter of getting books, supplies, and new clothes. It’s not just a matter of hoping to meet a cute guy or girl in recitation. It’s not just a matter of finding easy professors, fulfilling degree requirements, and getting good grades and internships to eventually get a good job and make good money. Those are the things that don’t matter. The things that do matter are the memories that resurface as you walk the familiar paths on campus and how you carry them with you, as part of you—a changed and changing you—into the new school year.