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Birthdays

A birthday isn’t a celebration of your birth;
it’s a celebration of why you live.

Friday was my birthday, and it was…  different.  It’s the only one i remember enjoying.  It’s not like i was ever miserable on my birthdays, but i just never assigned much importance to them.  I don’t remember my childhood birthdays, but for the last eight or so years, my attitude was that it’s only another day in the year, nothing to make a fuss over.  My parents would ask me what i wanted, and i’d reply, “I don’t want anything.  Who cares about birthdays?”  I’d hate having to have my mom’s seaweed soup (a traditional Korean birthday soup), because i hate seaweed soup, and she’s not a good cook.  I used to threaten her that i’d stop being her daughter if she made me any.  But this year was different.

I didn’t do much.  I woke up at around 5pm, wrote a few emails, and headed out to FedEx to send out my last document for a job.  UPS was supposed to come by my house to pick up something, but instead of knocking and picking up my package, the delivery man just stuck the mailing label on my door.  (UPS, you have a lot to learn from FedEx.)  Then i went shopping with my parents for “teacher clothes” (more on this in another post) and finally had the ddeok-bok-ki i’d been craving for weeks for dinner.  The ddeok-bok-ki was really good, but the draft beer tasted strange.

And so, it was an altogether unremarkable birthday.  But i was strangely happy, and it was only yesterday that i figured out why, when i was up at my usual summer pre-bedtime hours in the morning.  I’m at a point in my life where i’m perfectly satisfied.  I know where i wanna be in a few years (grad school for Philosophy), and i know what i wanna do before i get there (teach).  And now that i’m closer to making that dream of teaching a reality, i feel completely at ease and confident at the same time.  This is the perfect opportunity for me to take some time off, get away for a while, make new friends, and also have a bit of time to myself to read and practice philosophy in preparation for grad school.  And i value this opportunity because it’s what i wanted most.

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